Leia Jessira Starfire


Contents

The Story
Precautions
Implants
Rules to Follow


The Story

 
I will try to give a brief explanation of my story as I could easily talk for days on all the things that I have been through. I have been involved with this since childhood, and all my recountings could easily fill a book.

My father was very deeply involved with gov't psychic experimentation and mind control. My mother was a talented psychic who on a lark in college decided to volunteer for a study attempting to "prove" psychic abilities that was actually a front for the program my father was on that they were using to recruit talent. When my mother realized their true nature it was too late, she was imprisoned by them and raped and myself and a twin brother were the result. When I was four, my mother finally was able to escape with me with the help of a family friend and I was placed with a family that knew nothing of any of this to keep me safe and hidden.

Within 6 months of that they had tracked my mother down to where she was hiding and killed her. They didn't find out where I was until I was ten years old. At which point my adopted mother and I hit the streets to hide from the shadow gov't people and hopefully meet up with the friends that had placed me with her. Unfortunately we never were able to quite meet up and once we ran out of money and started bouncing checks they were able to track us down and I haven't see my adopted mother since.

I was sent to live with her parents and the shadow gov't people would monitor me and take me places from time to time to test me and in general mess with me. This is when I was first raped by my father as part of his attempts to intimidate and control me. My friends had been trying to teach me and help me but it was difficult because we had to do so much in secret. Finally when I was 14, I ran away from my adopted grandparents to live with the family friends who had been so helpful and they taught me so much.

When I graduated high school, I got married to one of the sons of that family and moved with him to Great Britain where he was a rock musician. About 1985 the shadow gov't caught up with me again and kidnapped me away from my husband, brought me back to he US, erased my memories and implanted false memories in my head that claimed I had never run away and none of the things I had experienced had ever happened. They were doing this in an attempt to mess with my head and get me to believe their lies so that I would willingly work for them.

In 1989 my real husband tracked me down and helped me to get away from the illegal marriage I was at that time living in and started me on the quest to find the truth. But though I knew that the shadow gov't people had been lying to me I wasn't sure if this man was lying to me as well and so I kept him at a distance. He and I would discuss my past and I would listen to his recountings and I would recognize much of what he told me but the way that I had been programmed it was like he was talking about daydreams I had had. That in itself was very erie.

We worked on this for a few years before I got laid off from my job. My husband would have taken me home with him then, but I was still uncertain that he was telling me the absolute truth, so I went to live with some friends. Big mistake, these friends were being controlled by the shadow government and those people were again able to get a hold of me and mess with my head.

At this point my husband and I got separated yet again and I haven't seen him since roughly 1994 or 95. I think with their hypnosis they were able to make me say some horrid things to my husband that made him go away and stop trying to help me, but since I haven't had a chance to speak with him since I have no idea what really happened there. All I can say is now that I now the truth, I miss him and very much want to be with him and go home.

1995 was a critical point because I finally started having break throughs in my memories and started having tangible evidence that Ian was telling me the truth. I had been in a near fatal auto accident when he and I had been dating and I finally had an x-ray that showed all the damage that he had told me about. My official memories from the shadow gov't reprogramming said I had never had any kind of accident or surgeries. But there it all was on the x-ray and explained many of the aches and pains I have. I didn't realize that at this same time the shadow gov't people were coming into my place at night and hypnotizing me and reprogramming me to keep me from finding the correct memories.

I then moved back to the city where I had lived with my friends who had been helping me. It was an incredible feeling of coming home because everywhere I went I would find places that would trigger memories. At the same time though I was coming across the false memories and getting led around in circles. I also fell into many traps that had been laid in my mind to break down my dominant personality and build up a new one that the shadow government people could use to control me. It got pretty grim. But I kept fighting back as much as I could.

One of the most incredible things that has helped me is my music. I discovered upon opening up my real memories that my husband had been teaching me how to play the keyboard. I had already had many years of voice training from school choirs and our plan was to work together as musicians. I realized that a way to get a hold of Ian since I didn't know where he was, was to get some of my music published and since he is very familiar with my music, he would recognize it and we would be able to get back together.

This prospect scares the people trying to control me because my getting back together with my husband would make it extremely difficult for them to control me, that's why when I was with my false friends they drove Ian away. Currently I am continuing my fight as best as I can, working on my music trying to get it to a finished state where I can then get it published, and trying to find someone who can help me get the implants out of my head.

Most of what I can say about myself I have very few documents to back up, though I am working on that, but what follows are the things I have learned from my dealings with the shadow government. These anybody can prove to themself by actually experimenting with these thoughts and applying them to their own situation. I offer what I have learned to all people who have become victims of the shadow government's illegal mind control program in the hopes that what has helped me to fight against them may help others, because we will only succeed if we work together towards the common goal of freedom.

Contents
 

General Precautions for
dealing with Shadow Gov't
mind control and harassment

First off food is a main thing to watch

Security Precautions

Mental Awareness

Contents
 

Discussion of Implants I am familiar with

Radio transmitters-those voices in your head- they put small ceramic(?) disks on the ridge of bone behind your earlobes. I have one on each side and they are slightly offset/misplaced so I know they are not natural features. they also hurt when they turn up the juice to punish me. They vibrate the bone and your inner ear picks it up the same as standard sounds. Usually the voice has a somewhat hollow sound that is offset to whichever side they are transmitting to. I found that playing music in headphones drowns them out and if they are using those same implants to listen, the music overrides your surface thoughts and they can't hear.

Optical implants-there was an IEEE (International Electrical and Electronic Engineers Society) issue that completely covered current optical implant technology. I believe the article was late 1996 or early 1997 it got taken from me so I don't know the exact date. They described how the implants use lasers to scan the optic nerves to pick up the image and transmit it to your brain. Their articles were discussing the use of the implants for individuals with visual impairments, but those same transmitters could instead of going into the brain be transmitted out to some distant receiver. Then whatever you see would be shown on someone's monitor. The ultimate in spy technology. And I have one in my left eye. They also put one of these in my cat. The reason I noticed this was that the side of her face was really sore and her eye was all red from the surgery and when they put the skin back they pulled it too tight so that her face looked stretched. They weren't very careful, and they also put something in her ear. I tested this by waiting until she was walking away from me and started talking as if I were talking to the gov't people. It was so erie. She stopped, turned around and had the most odd and pained expression and her whole body was stiff like an automaton and only once I stopped talking did she visibly shift and relax and resume acting like a cat. I took her to the pound the next morning to be put to sleep. To my mind it was kinder to do that than have them forcibly controlling her like a machine.

Fiber-like electrodes that can be inserted into the skull like needles-monitor brainwave patterns like an EKG so that they can monitor different brain functions or alter specific brain functions by the amount of "negative reinforcement" they use. If they make it painful enough in theory, you'll change your thought patterns to something more acceptable. Those of us who are fighting back and resisting, must have thick skulls or something (joke), in my case just sheer stubbornness. It hurts but oh well. I just don't think about it. Usually when they are zapping certain parts of my head I get an incessant itch on the scalp because of the electricity and I want to dig the things out. There are times when I feel like a Christmas tree because they are displeased with me and are punishing me. Other times they use these things to turn me off literally. I will suddenly not be able to keep my eyes open or concentrate on anything. They do this to me to distract me from topics they don't want me thinking on or to neutralize me if they are coming to do something to me, because if I am conscious and they are physically near me I go berserk. I have trashed some of their medical facilities when I was younger because I violently object to their abuses. When they put in the current batch of implants they overdosed me on some serious narcotics to keep me whacked out long enough to finish the procedure and as it was I woke up half way through and panicked the people monitoring me until they were able to get me back under. I was ill for a month afterwards. I find it amusing to think that they are nervous of me but at the same time that is sobering because it means they will go to extra strong measures to neutralize me. Much of the suffering I have gone through has been because they are so concerned that I might be a threat to them.

These electrodes are used in conjunction with the bugs they place in your common work and living places. They monitor your brain activity, and "adjust" your behaviour in this way. They can monitor your surface thoughts in this way, so be careful what you think when in any of these spaces. Do your planning away from the bugs. I have also found loud music played through headphones drowns the surface thoughts enough if you can keep your thoughts quiet. (Don't "talk" loud in your mind-think in a whisper- this also works against telepaths) I have tested this and it is fairly effective. They also find ways to "calibrate" you to know what thoughts associate with what brainwave patterns and then refer to that to gauge where your thoughts are at.

They monitor what areas of your brain are being triggered and what thoughts are associated with those areas. Using this knowledge, they have tried to steer me away from the areas of my brain containing the correct memories and have pushed me towards the false memories they wanted me to believe. If you are out of range of their transmitters they don't work and have to resort to other methods of control and intimidation to bring you back into their influence. This is when they usually use the telepaths to mess with you or long range transmitters, or what I call babysitters (people that follow you around). In general it appears that the level of power used in transmission to the electrodes is relatively low level, just enough to transmit in your local area.

I noticed recently that I was doing fine until I pulled into my drive and got within 50 yards of where I live and then I was overwhelmed with absolute anguish and depression. They are really trying to drive me into despair to get me to give up my fight. I have also noticed when I am in my room and working on things my general state gets much more diffused and less able to focus or plan what I need to do to get out of this. But if I leave my place and go away from my standard haunts or go into woods (I live near several forested state parks) my head clears up drastically.

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Rules I have followed that
help me keep my head straight

Do or do not there is no try- if I don't keep pushing and getting each small step, if I give up fighting then I'm betraying everything I believe in. So I keep doing until I get it right. If you just try you're not really committed.

Do not worry

Be in control of self at all times

Do not allow others to make decisions for you

Be aware of what is happening around you and in your mind

Something I must point out here; for those of us who are victims of mind control we must realize that many of the thoughts in our heads are not original to us. They are either implanted hypnotically or else someone is using a radio transmitter to fill our heads with their garbage. (I call it peeing in my brain). Or their telepaths are messing with you. Because most people believe in the sanctity of their minds as their own private space they don't realize that it is real easy for someone like the shadow gov't with all their expensive toys, paid for with our tax dollars, to violate our private space with impunity. You must make a specific point to make sure that you're thoughts are you're own. Know thyself! Be true to thyself.

Discipline and control

Perseverance

Most of all stay centered

(I know this sounds "New Age" again but it is effective)

Do or do not there is no try. Action, effort, is what matters. No matter how difficult things seem as long as you keep going, you can achieve success. One must be aware of the interconnections between everything. Learn form your experiences and learn how to apply your insights. If a situation occurs repeatedly try to understand why. See the connections. Knowledge is your true weapon. Knowledge and understanding of oneself and one's environment. For us to succeed there can be no fear, no hate, no sorrow or pain; only peace and acceptance of what is, and commitment to winning this war. As long as we can keep our heads clear and our wits about us, we have a chance of winning.